I have spent the last few days at the Oregon Ministry network summit, which is basically the Oregon assemblies of God District council. The past few days have been spent in some incredible time of worship. Let me tell you what…amazing- AWEsome worship. The spirit of God is so powerful, so real, so strong that there is not a single doubt in my mind that God is real, in charge, there for us.
Last night I was dealing with some personal fears and crying out to God about taking these stupid insignificant fears away from me. While I was praying, God spoke through someone. One of the interpretations given was that I am not done with you yet. I fear, though stupid and distracting from my relationship with Jesus, that something might happen to me.
So the first response is so what? Nothing is going to happen to me unless God allows it to. Nothing can happen that God doesn’t know about. Its not like He is sitting up in Heaven and forgets about us and then says “oh yeah I forgot about him.”
The second response is this. When I heard the interpretation that I am not done with you yet, I felt like God was speaking directly to me. I felt as though God was telling me, “Ryan, I am not done with you yet. I am still wanting you do be in ministry. I want you to forget about your fears and put your trust in me, the Lord your God. I will let nothing happen to you that I don’t know about. I want to use you. You aren’t done!”
How incredible!! Feeling that I am so afraid but hearing from God that he is not done with me…wow! Thank you God for taking the time to seek me, desire a relationship with me, and long for me to seek after you.
I love you God! Thank you for loving me. Thank you God for using me. Thank you for not being done with me yet…..
